Fail

I feel like a huge failure now.

I bought an organization book and haven't done anything. i tryed the first week but that was it.

I have been craving cupcakes for awhile and I finally got my cupcake and it was not as satisfying as I thought it would be. It was just to sweet and made my stomach upset.

About the only thing that I haven't failed with os my wedding, but that is still a lot of work.

I am going to try to be better with stuff. I think it would help if my apartment was cleaned up. It drains me so much when it is messy.

Organize Your Mind Week 1

• Goals
• Get a minimum of seven hour of sleep. This one will be easy for me. I usually am asleep by 10 and usually don't get up before 6.
• Start the day by jotting down a short To Do list of everything I want to do or need to do. I don't know how easy this will be for me. I am usually rushing in the morning to get to work. I am trying hard to get up on time, so I don't have to rush anymore.
• Start a journal. I have a journal that I write in occasionally. Hopefully I can write in it more often.
• Limit the amount of television you watch. I don't often watch TV anymore, but I am addicted to netflix's.
• Schedule a two-minute break two or three times a day to spend time alone and just be.
• Practice meditating. I have tried many times to learn to meditate, but have never been very successful. So we'll see how this goes.
• Schedule time to exercise. I am starting this one. I went for a run tonight and felt amazing.
• Schedule more "me time." I am horrible with "me time."
• Eliminate energy drainers in you life. J and I have been working on getting the clutter out of our apartment since my graduation. I have a lot of sewing projects that I need to finish.
• Take control of you time. I have thought about this one, but haven't actually done it yet. I am going to start doing this.

52 Weeks to Get Organized

I bought a book called organize now!

Over 52 weeks I will be doing various tasks to get my life and home organized. After 5 years of college every aspect of my life is a mess. For me this is going to be really hard. I plan to use this blog to help me on my journey.

The book is broken up into seven sections: Organize Yourself, Organize Your Papers, Organize Your Things, Organize You High-Traffic Area, ,Organize Your Personal Spaces, Organize Your Storage Areas, and Organize Your Special Events.

My plan is to try to do at least one post a week. I'm not sure how hard or easy this will be for me.

Ski Boots

I finally have my own telemark ski boots. Now I just need to save up some money for ski's and bindings and get in shape.

Un-sure of Where Life Is Taking Me

I am graduating from college in a month and have no plans for life after college. The only thing that I seem to be sure about is where I am going to live. I am engaged to the most amazing man who has a job here in Rapid. I don't feel like I could tell him that I don't care about his career I am getting a job somewhere else. The only problem with this is that there almost no civil enineering jobs here. That leaves me with trying to figure out what I am going to do.

I have thought about a lot of different options such as:
- going back to school for outdoor education
- going back to school to be a high school teacher
- take classes so I can become a paramedic/ forest firefighter/ ski patrol
- find a job working for a non-profit
- convince Mr. P to let me be a homemake (least likely as I have strong feminist views and he probably wouldn't agree)

The most appealing to me would be a mix of all. I have already applied and been accepted to BH, so I could take a class or 2 this fall. I have also thought about running away and living in an ashram for awhile. I even found one that I really like.

Exhausted

I am exhausted in every way possible.

I am mentally and phsycologically exhausted from school, work, and AOE. I feel like I can never get ahead. As soon as I finish one thing two more things get thrown at me. I constantly feel like I'm drowning.

I am physically exhausted from lack of sleep. I feel like I can never get enough sleep. I went to Mexico for a week and slept all I want and I am still exhausted.

True To The Name of This Blog

I have been completely avoiding this blog. I keep telling myself that I am too busy to sit down and write something. In reality I think I am just afraid. I read all these other blogs and they are amazing. I am afraid that I will never be able to write a blog like them.

Well today I decided that I am done being afraid. Life is getting really stressful and I need a place to write down everything thats in my mind. So from now on I will be true to the name of my blog and use this as an outlet for my mind. I won't wait for a theme to come to me, I will just write.