Wishcasting Wednesday

What do you wish to share?

I would like to share my form of religion. I grew up in the mountains and that is where I find a connection with the spirit, I'm not sure what kind of spirit there is in the mountains, but it keeps me grounded. Anytime I go for a hike or go back country skiing, or anything in the mountains I feel a calmness wash over me. Everything bad flows out of me and is replaced with calm.

Wishcasting Wednesday

What Luxury Do You Wish For?

The luxury I wish for is a really nice pair of telemark skis. I have been skiing on my Dad's old ones for four years now. It would be nice to have my own pair that were really nice and actually were short enough for me. Being that I'm in college I have not had the opportunity to get my own pair. Granted I'm getting pretty good on my long mismatched yellow skis and enjoy the comments from the other tele skiers here SD, I would like a pair that wouldn't put up a fight all the time.

WishCasting Wednesday

What do you wish to begin?

I wish to begin living. I keep telling myself someday I will do that. I have a stack of books I want to read. I wish I could read some of those. I would love to be able to finish a few of my sewing projects instead of telling myself someday I will do that. My scrapbook is another thing I would love to work on instead of just putting it off for "someday." There is a lot I would love to be able to do without telling myself someday.

Wishcasting

I'm going to do something completely out of character for me. I am going to do Wishcasting Wednesday. I'm not sure how it will go, but we will see.

What do you wish to acknowledge yourself for?

I wish to acknowlege myself for my continuing efforts to healthify (if thats a word) my life. Through-out my four years spent in college I have become a junk food eater and have gained more weight than I like to admit. I got really frustrated with the way I was eating and looking this last year and vowed to do something about it. It has been extremely hard to get out and exercise, but I have started getting better.

I have been biking to work as much as possible all summer. A few weeks ago I started running. I never thought I would enjoy it as much as I have. When I played lacrosse I loathed running before practice. Now I absolutely love it. I feel so free when I'm out. I have also been trying to get back into the routine of doing yoga at least once a week. So far I have only gotten myself to meditate once.

J. and I have been really working on getting our diet back to normal. We have been eating much better than we used to. Not eating fast food and pasta roni every night. I have been feeling a thousand times better since this.

WE HAVE NOT COME TO TAKE PRISONERS

We have not come here to take prisoners,
But to surrender ever more deeply
To freedom and joy.

We have not come into this exquisite world
To hold ourselves hostage from love.

Run my dear,
From anything
That may not strengthen
Your precious budding wings.

Run like hell my dear,
From anyone likely
To put a sharp knife
Into the sacred, tender vision
Of your beautiful heart.

We have a duty to befriend
Those aspects of obedience
That stand outside of our house
And shout to our reason
"Oh please, oh please,
Come out and play."

For we have not come here to take prisoners
Or to confine our wondrous spirits,

But to experience ever and ever more deeply
Our divine courage, freedom, and
Light!

--Hafiz

Goals and Things Desired To Do For The Fall

"We must be the change we wish to see in the world."
--Gandhi

In no particular order here they are

- Swim 1 time a week

- Bike 2 times a week

- Run 3 times a week

- Strength train 2 times a week

- Yoga at least 1 time a week

- Learn to meditate

- Read 1 book a month

- Find a good study spot

- Continue to eat healthy during school

- Be a better GF

- Schedule me time

- Have a dinner party

- "Just Start Over"

- Stand up for myself

- Use less plastic

- Strengthen views

- Always have a positive outlook on life

- Talk positive about people

- Simplify life

- Ecofy

3 Promises
1) Get a compost bucket
2) Get Airators and low flow shower head
3) Carbon offsetting

- Honesty and Integrity

- Learn bliss

Now I came to this idea of bliss because in Sanskrit, which is the great spiritual language of the world, there are three terms that represent the brink, the jumping-off place to the ocean of transcendence: sat-chit-ananda. The word "sat" means being. "Chit" means consciousness. "Ananda" means bliss or rapture. I thought, "I don't know whether my consciousness is proper consciousness or not; I don't know whether what I know of my being is my proper being or not; but I do know what my rapture is. So let me hang on to rapture, and that will bring me both my consciousness and my being." I think it worked.

Joseph Campbell, The Power of Myth

- Journal more often

- Drive less

Negative Nancy

The other day Jason made a comment about how all my music is negative. This got me thinking. Then a little while later he said that when I'm with certain people all we do is talking negatively about everything. This really got me thinking.

I've never been the type of person that talks about people behind their backs or spreads gossip. What makes me capable of doing this when I'm with people that are by nature negative? Am I the kind of person who has a different face for every person I spend time with?


The answers to these questions used to be that I wasn't capable of being like that and I never used to be someone who changed who they were for every different person. Something makes me want to blame all of this on the college I go to and the state I currently live in. This doesn't seem like a good answer, especially since I don't like the blame game.

I have made a pact with myself that I will work on not doing this actions. I believe this will help me find myself again.