Un-sure of Where Life Is Taking Me

I am graduating from college in a month and have no plans for life after college. The only thing that I seem to be sure about is where I am going to live. I am engaged to the most amazing man who has a job here in Rapid. I don't feel like I could tell him that I don't care about his career I am getting a job somewhere else. The only problem with this is that there almost no civil enineering jobs here. That leaves me with trying to figure out what I am going to do.

I have thought about a lot of different options such as:
- going back to school for outdoor education
- going back to school to be a high school teacher
- take classes so I can become a paramedic/ forest firefighter/ ski patrol
- find a job working for a non-profit
- convince Mr. P to let me be a homemake (least likely as I have strong feminist views and he probably wouldn't agree)

The most appealing to me would be a mix of all. I have already applied and been accepted to BH, so I could take a class or 2 this fall. I have also thought about running away and living in an ashram for awhile. I even found one that I really like.

Exhausted

I am exhausted in every way possible.

I am mentally and phsycologically exhausted from school, work, and AOE. I feel like I can never get ahead. As soon as I finish one thing two more things get thrown at me. I constantly feel like I'm drowning.

I am physically exhausted from lack of sleep. I feel like I can never get enough sleep. I went to Mexico for a week and slept all I want and I am still exhausted.

True To The Name of This Blog

I have been completely avoiding this blog. I keep telling myself that I am too busy to sit down and write something. In reality I think I am just afraid. I read all these other blogs and they are amazing. I am afraid that I will never be able to write a blog like them.

Well today I decided that I am done being afraid. Life is getting really stressful and I need a place to write down everything thats in my mind. So from now on I will be true to the name of my blog and use this as an outlet for my mind. I won't wait for a theme to come to me, I will just write.

If I knew how to embed a video I would have done that instead of just putting the link. This is a cool music video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oIr8-f2OWhs

Wishcasting Wednesday

What do you wish to share?

I would like to share my form of religion. I grew up in the mountains and that is where I find a connection with the spirit, I'm not sure what kind of spirit there is in the mountains, but it keeps me grounded. Anytime I go for a hike or go back country skiing, or anything in the mountains I feel a calmness wash over me. Everything bad flows out of me and is replaced with calm.

Wishcasting Wednesday

What Luxury Do You Wish For?

The luxury I wish for is a really nice pair of telemark skis. I have been skiing on my Dad's old ones for four years now. It would be nice to have my own pair that were really nice and actually were short enough for me. Being that I'm in college I have not had the opportunity to get my own pair. Granted I'm getting pretty good on my long mismatched yellow skis and enjoy the comments from the other tele skiers here SD, I would like a pair that wouldn't put up a fight all the time.

WishCasting Wednesday

What do you wish to begin?

I wish to begin living. I keep telling myself someday I will do that. I have a stack of books I want to read. I wish I could read some of those. I would love to be able to finish a few of my sewing projects instead of telling myself someday I will do that. My scrapbook is another thing I would love to work on instead of just putting it off for "someday." There is a lot I would love to be able to do without telling myself someday.